A Milli A Milli

I like that song although I don't know what it means
So..what's been going on? Went to a career fair yesterday with Gowri which was held downtown in the statler hotel. It was a complete waste of time. A whole bunch of not-heard-of companies laid out their tables and sat their with blank stares across their faces. Yeah, not very impressive. I mean some were nice but overall it wasn't great. I am just losing it...the hope, inspiration, aspiration, etc. This whole recessive economy thing couldn't have had happened at a better time (not). Although I am sure many would reconsider before putting something like not being able to find a job on their blogs, I am okay with it. There's no point in faking it and saying 'oh yeah the job hunt is going great'. Applying for jobs online, the paperless way, feels like tossing resumes into outerspace or an imaginary trash bin. Okay, enough of job-blabber. Moving on to more redundant things like the weather, okay, I am not a very big 'hot weather' person although I have lived half my life in Oman. Summer time here in Buffalo does not suit me very well..I get the frizzies, zits, oily skin...even an oil-free pressed powder gets oily on my skin. Oh did I tell you that I bought my first product from Lush...I love Lush..it smells like a little exotic pantry in there. I got the coalface soap and its got Liquorice Root, Powdered Charcoal. You could check it out here Well, I am gonna go take a nap because there's nothing better to do now. Ciao

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Yup I know I've been MIA...here's what you missed:

~Incessant purchases of taco bell's cheese-roll ups--at 89 cents, can't go wrong...although could probably make it at home by throwing some shredded cheese inside a tortilla and heating it up.
~Incessant job hunting
~Incessant tanning (not on purpose), this side of the world gets quite a bit of sun actually...there goes my controlled tan.
~Incessant blemishes that won't go away no matter how much tea tree oil I slather on my face. boo
~Incessant eating all things wrong for summer time...like cheese-filled, grease-drenched stuff.
~Incessant worries that won't go away.

What what

Haven't been here in a while. What has happened ever since? Well...The Clinton damsel decided to step down (or was stepped down rather), the sun came out in Buffalo, my birthday passed by and the economy is still going through recession. Yeah, not much happened.
Oh I forgot, Mahrin's engagement reception was this past Saturday and it was a fun. Although a dumb incident preceeded it--I locked myself out of my apartment like a retard. I went to my neighbors apartment for her mom to put the saree on for me...I come back and bam my roomie locked up and left. God bless her. So, anyways, I had my makeup (not to my satisfication though as I hadn't used pressed powder yet and that mineralized satinfinish foundation is not very matter) but I didn't have my absolutely wonderful matching earrings on, not to mention cellphone, bag, gum, etc. I went to the dinner anyways with all kinds of fear---my roomie was supposed to leave for a conference and I feared that if she didn't return that night, I would have to pay a nasty $35 fee to get into my apartment. Anyhoo, she came and everything was okay. I was so happy for Mahrin, she looked so radiant. So that is what has happened lately...
To the friends who have requested for me to update my blog...I am not feeling very update-y lately. I mean nothing is moving. Still waiting for a reply from that place I had a phone interview for. I am just losing it you know, hope. I know this isn't a nice thing to say, but I have been feeling this lately that things are not just the way they should be. I just hope to find some contentment soon...

No motivation

Yes, as of late, I have had zero motivation to do just about anything. No I am not getting suicidal or morbid. Just not feeling it you know. I could point a gazillion successful people who feel the same once in a while or all the time. Oh well, hope it will pass. By the by, I have been having this weird sleeping problem. I haven't been able to sleep properly for a week now...those under-eye circles and wrinkly skin are all creeping up. Gosh, I will be 25 in 3 days which means I am going to have to soon start using richer night creams, eye creams, firming masks and stuff. I'm not saying I am a wrinkly old lady...but I have read in magazines and heard from beauticians that it is necessary to use the appropriate skin products and be wary from early on. The whole 'beauty is only skin deep' is so full of balderdash. I mean I wish it was like that but we all know very well that it isn't. People are so taken over my physical looks that anything else takes a while to seep in. That wasn't a generalization, there are good people in this world as well.
So remember how I had started working out and stuff about a month and half ago, oh all that has gone to pluto. I mean I did enjoy while mommy was here and a whole bunch of buddies but my butt didn't enjoy it. I will probably go down for a walk in a bit. Oh another oops, I have ran out of my MAC foundation and I just haven't had the courage to shell out $28 something for the perfect shade of foundation. Only if drugstore brands carried my yellowy shade. Everything in Wal-Mart and Walgreens is for like either super-white people or super-black people...whatever happened to the in-betweeners? But a tip, the wrong shade of foundation can create havoc if you want to look good...it totally spoils the look. Oh well, let's see what I could do. Mahrin's engagement party is this weekend and I am looking forward to that. Time for a little promenade by thyself...
Tata

Changing times...

There was a time long ago...well actually just 7 years ago when I used to think very differently about many things. Here they are in no particular order:
-I used to think the uber-american idiom 'I need my space' was so over-rated. I used to wonder why would anyone (people in all kinds of relationships) need space. They should just need each other every moment. Well I was wrong and I realized with the various experiences in my life, time and of course age.
-I used to ponder why people would eat sun-dried tomato pesto on organic rye crackers when they could just eat regular tomatoes Why people would eat soy bars with soy milk instead of regular cereal with milk? We-ell, yesterday me bought me some soyjoy bars because I love them so much and of course totally understand the sun-dried tomato thing. Have gotten sucked into the culture of ultra-sophisticated pretentious sounding food. Hey, they taste good.
-I used to wonder why men and women have such different thinking and acting mechanisms. That hasn't changed however, I still don't know whats going in each of the gender's heads.

Many people would resent and question why I felt the way I did. Well, to each her own. But the reason I have had marked changes in my ideologies is because I changed countries. I used to live in the Eastern Hemisphere and now I live in the Western Hemisphere. Over here people eat a lot of cheese and use toilet paper when they cry.

Anyways, right now I am watching Ugly Betty, totally catching up on the missed episodes while munching on cherries. I just gave myself a pedi a minute ago with a foot bath and all.

Sleepy all the time...

...why? Because so much has happened in so little time.
Went to New York, Mommy left, came back from New York all in a flash.
Every corner of my apartment reminds me of her now. How she used to wait for me everyday after work with cooked meals. How she used to clean the kitchen spankin clean. How she used to lay out all her magazines and other reads besides the bed. How she used to watch the Travel Channel non-stop. Okay, let me stop before I get too emotional.
Back to the same old. Work, sleep, food, tv--not necessarily in that order but those things are what are predominant in my life. I did have a swell time in new york and must say rosy auntie is awesome. She took us around and showed us a really good time. Okay thats all for now, gotta take a shower. Have this hair mask treatment on thats getting dry...

T00t T00t...

You know how a school campus becomes at the end of the school year? Like a ghost-town. And the ever-changing weather with frequent bouts of cloudy skies doesn't help either. I am working in the Admissions Office till the end of May, which is just around the corner. I walk to school (work) and back every day with decreasing enthusiasm. The fact that I come home to mommy is like a whiff of fresh, fragrant air. She has cooked many of my favorite things these past few days that she has been here...nothing lavish. A simple curry chicken, curry beef, rice, hand-made bread, etc. Gosh I will miss her. I get along very well with her (knock on wood) and that's why it is so hard for me to see her leave in a few days. We are leaving for new york city tomorrow afternoon by train. Wow, haven't been on a train in a while. Seems like an adventure---my life's very un-adventurous so an 8-hour train ride seems pretty exciting.
By the way, the amount of weight I have put on since mommy's come is ghastly. We've been eating so much but then again I am one of those people who like to eat copious amounts of food when I am tres comfortable. However, all those big bites are settling down very comfortably on my, ahem, hips. Okay, got to wake up tomorrow and be all fresh for the train ride.
-Gotta stop eating these ritz crackers.